From my earliest memories I was aware of "good & evil". I was taught by god fearing parents, but somehow I knew in my heart when I had done wrong; whether they told me or not. I was also aware that I choose evil at times, with no regard for the consequences. There was a part of my nature that at times I couldn't seem to control.
To get back to my parents. I discovered that if I confessed what I had done wrong, and told the truth; my parents, who depending on the offense sometimes punished me and sometimes not; would forgive me! As life went on that forgiveness and restoration to thier favor, came to mean more to me than anything material that they gave me, or could ever give me. Time went on. Knowing the awful feeling of guilt, I still would sometimes find myself up too my neck in what I knew was wrong. I wanted to be free from that crushing weight of guilt that always came evetually from knowing I had lost my "right standing" in thier eyes. It was a viscous cycle which I started to realize I couldn't free myself from on my own. We said our prayers every night, asking "the Lord" to keep my soul, or take it if I died before I awoke. And we prayed for everyone we knew. My brother and I sometimes had quite the list of people we asked the Lord to bless, and requests for good things for ourselves and all those we prayed for.
More too come soon.
Saturday, May 13, 2017
Sunday, June 26, 2016
4 From whence come wars and fightings among you? come they not hence, even of your lusts that war in your members?
2 Ye lust, and have not: ye kill, and desire to have, and cannot obtain: ye fight and war, yet ye have not, because ye ask not.
3 Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts.
4 Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God.
5 Do ye think that the scripture saith in vain, The spirit that dwelleth in us lusteth to envy?
6 But he giveth more grace. Wherefore he saith, God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble.
7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
8 Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.
9 Be afflicted, and mourn, and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning, and your joy to heaviness.
10 Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.
Who is a wise man and endued with knowledge among you? let him shew out of a good conversation his works with meekness of wisdom. But if ye have bitter envying and strife in your hearts, glory not, and lie not against the truth. This wisdom descendeth not from above, but is earthly, sensual, devilish. For where envying and strife is, there is confusion and every evil work. But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be intreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy. And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.